I got you Moment
You see people smile. You see people go to work as if life is normal. But behind that smile or while that person is at work they are hurting.
The hardest thing is to walk around as if nothing is wrong, keeping that smile when all you want to do is break down and cry. You can't see it now but your relief is coming. It's just a matter of time. It's hard to right this because I know how it feels when it feels like your cries are on deaf ears and you are praying and calling out to God "DO YOU SEE ME?" DO YOU CARE?' WHERE ARE YOU?" and you have many people telling you he doesn't exist and he doesn't hear you.
I will tell you from experience I was right there. I saw no end insight I saw no way for God to make away for me. But every time he did never on my time. But always right on time. Right before I gave up! Right before I said no more. God said I got you.
I know you are waiting for your I got you moment from God it's not over for you